6-Jun 1:00 PM Nurse: Jamie
BP 112/68 (quite low)
Pulse 96
O2 94%
Temp 96.0
Resp 28
Notes: Feet a little more swollen - but may have been because of the heat
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June 7th
Today has not been a good day.
When I arrived this morning, I found Gma on the floor at the foot of her bed. She had pulled her bedding off the bed. I assume it came off as she was trying to get herself up. It took some doing, but we worked together and got her up on her bed, where she rested for a short time. She then needed to get into the bathroom. At some point (it's all starting to get fuzzy for me), we got her into her chair in the front room where she spent the rest of the morning and had her lunch there.
Susan, a friend, a neighbor, a Hospice Nurse in the other valley, brought in a pizza that we all enjoyed.
Here come the sad part. After lunch, in getting Gma up so she could go to the bathroom then lay down on her bed for a nap this afternoon, she could barely take steps... It pained me to watch her struggle so... Finally, we got her into bed and I told her that she needed sleep and that she should sleep as much as she wanted to -- we would be back to check on her around supper time.
One little thing that I've left out is:
* When I discovered her this morning, I asked her how long she had been there - she told me 'only 4-5 minutes'. I realize that her perception of time can be quite skewed, so, I really don't know how long she had been there.
* As she was going to the bathroom after lunch, she made a comment that she had fallen backwards during the night (indicating between the bed and the train table). Evidentally she had spent some time there during the night, then had managed to get herself up. I didn't give her the '20 Questions' because I knew I really wouldn't get any answers because she wouldn't remember or she wouldn't tell me anyway...
She was looking and sounding very frail this morning/afternoon...
As I was laying her down, she said a few times that she was' ready to go'...
She has said 'that' several times - and I think in her head/mind she is ready to go but I have questioned whether 'in her heart' she was really ready to go. As she lay down this afternoon, I think I felt a small glimmer that she was starting to feel it in her heart that it was time to go...
We shall see. Her pattern has been -- being down (physically or mentaly) and then getting some needed rest -- then bouncing back to just less than her previous 'norm'.
3 comments:
Duane, thank you for letting us know, how things are going. I can't imagine how difficult it must be for you and Gma, during this difficult phase of life.
I can only hope, that when it is her time. That she can go quickly and painlessly.
Thank you, again for all that you do.
I echo Shane's comments. It must so very difficult to watch as it tears at your heart and even harder to write and admit. I, too, hope that when it's her time she can go quickly, peacefully and painlessly.
Thanks so much for telling it like it is. Prayers for you in this difficult time, too.
Thank you Duane for keeping us all in the loop. It's tough to be so far away. Even though it is tough to write about I really appreciate the honest way you share with us what is really happening there. Our prayers are with you all during this time.
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